It's been two days since I've been without cable. Without tv actually, I don't have that converter box so I get nothing but static. I have to tell you. I really, really miss it. I always used the tv as background noise. I'm sort of ADD that way. I'm getting divorced and selling the family home. So, I'm all alone in the big empty house and I have to tell you. The televisions set to my favorite shows kept me company. I could pretend that I wasn't alone. The noise alone was comforting. It's amazing how much I had come to depend on my crutch cable television. It gave me something to do when I had nothing to do. It filled my mind and eyes with pictures and thoughts. Not necessarily good thoughts but thoughts. My particular vices on tv were 'Criminal Minds', 'Law and Order SVU', 'Law and Order CI', 'Burn Notice', 'House', and 'Fraiser'. These were the main ones. I would watch whatever captured my fancy.
But now I am bereft. I am reduced to watching dvd's and I have realized that I have precious few of them. You can only watch 'Bridget Jones' so many times. People have said that I just need to put on some music. I love music but I need to see something. My mind has to be engaged on many levels. For instance I am blogging, watching 'Lord of the Rings' and watching the thunderstorm outside. I would be in heaven if only I knew that I had the choice to change the channel.
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